Yup that is exactly how the year has made me feel so far, and there isn’t another way I can really put it. However, saying that things are improving slowly. I am ignoring the set backs, well not really ignoring them I am taking them as lessons to take forward with me whilst I face the challenges life continues to throw at me. And by gods it is a lot right now still.
I have almost finished the ‘script’ for my next YouTube video, I am thinking that my first Patreon video will be pretty much the same, and then I get to move onto creating different content for each platform. My confidence when it comes to things like this has vastly improved from when I posted my first on the “you of the tube”, ok I say confidence but I think it is more along the lines that I am a lot more relaxed, and much more comfortable being on camera. This is all down to TikTok of all places!! I among many joined the app through boredom during the pandemic, little did I expect to find an amazing, and supportive group of people who have come together to form their own little community, or as we like to call it “The Clan” (we are not a cult) (I know all cults say that they’re not cults but honestly we’re not) Who would of thought out of my whole family I would become a content creator, I never once thought I would gain 100 followers interested in everything my life entails but I was wrong. Heck it still confuses my boys much to my amusement, and they are as happily shocked as I am that I have started earning money through it. Of course I still get a tonne of shitty troll comments, but if you know me you already know that I do not give a fuck. Not a single one. We have even created our own way of dealing with them, apart from asking them questions as to why they think its an ok thing to do. But that is a secret only The Clan knows.
I could, as ever, go on to write about all the other stuff that has been going on but I am not going to as I will no doubt trigger myself into having another emotional mess. I am just going to leave it at that for now, focusing on the positives so that the negatives don’t grow into uncontrollable monsters.
The Proverbial Dandelion 