I have absolutely no idea where January went to so let us not really worry about that because it isn’t going to get the month back. Today I am feeling a lot more human than I have in a while. I am in the middle of a flair up, not just my ME and Fibromyalgia but also my arthritis which if I am honest I have been that consumed with the former two that I had pushed my knees and joint issues to the back of my head. I have been given some extra meds though and after a few days have started to work a little.
Tomorrow is calendar Imbolc with Lunar Imbolc being on the 11th. Now is the time to plant the seeds of growth, not just in the garden but also within ourselves. Being in the second year of a pandemic means that a lot of us are looking towards the year not really sure what it is going to hold. Looking back at last year I don’t think it would be too much of a stretch to think that this year isn’t going to be much different. Festivals are being cancelled already not that I had the money to attend any, either for work or for fun. I miss my festival family even though I am not one to socialise just being around them makes me feel at home. With this is mind my home and garden shall have to once again become my “festival get away”. The majority of that work has already been done I just want a couple more sitting places so I can paint in the summer.
Winter has been spent reviewing the past year, what worked, what didn’t and most importantly what needs working on this year.
Growing food in the garden will have to be amped up, as will the chicken proofing. The girls have gone from being in a large enclosure, to then having half the garden, then to having the whole garden and the kitchen. The growing beds have had chicken bedding and compost continuously added to over the winter so when the next layer of soil goes on it should provide enough nutrients. I need to work a way of growing vertically too.
The issues I am facing is that I am no longer able to go around skip diving, or out walking collecting useful things that people have thrown out. Yes I am a Womble. I also do not have the money to be able to buy the wood etc that I would need to be able to make everything that I want to. I am also going to need help in trimming the trees and tying branches in to where I want them to grow. My health is taking a beating, mentally and physically. Dealing with the challenges my mental health bring me are easier for me to work on than my physical health. That is a whole different post which is being worked on. These things take so much longer than they use to, and that is part of my problem. I keep comparing the old with the present. I know this is so I can try and figure out how to adapt things but that is where I have been going wrong. I need to start looking at everything with fresh eyes, from a new perspective without getting trapped in the head talk of “ but I use to be able to …….”
What better time to start looking into all this than now. As I plant the new seeds for food so must I plant the seeds of personal growth.
What are you planning for this year?