wow, my last post was just as i thought things were on the up. I am sorry to say things went back down again and at a speed i was not expecting. My grandma died on the 26th February in her sleep, three months before her ninety second birthday. It was then that my world fell apart, well not really fell, it was ripped apart and it is still very much all over the place. She was not only my grandma but also just like a mother and best friend all rolled into life. She was an amazing woman and it has taken me until now with being ok (ish) about referring to her in the past tense. her death did not bring our family closer together, in fact it has resulted in us being further apart than we were already which is saying something. you see the way my family dynamics work is in sections. my father has his family (separated from my mother when i was younger) My brother has his, my mother her’s, and then you have me and my children. This dynamic will more than likely feature in future blog posts so i thought i would mention it now.
I am still very much in mourning, I don’t know when it will start to even out a little bit, these things can never be predicted. In the mean time by gods I’ve been reflecting even more so than normal, which is saying something. My mind is as messy as my house, and I get no help with either. Which is another story I guess. I wanted to come on here quickly to start my catching up blogs and get this one out of the way and done with.
