The weather really isn’t the best right now. The temperature has dropped, the sun appears to have forgotten how to sun as the clouds, and rain win the battle in the sky. I have been able to smell Autumn for a while now and I don’t know if it triggers my urge to hibernate but that is exactly what I would like to do right now as I am tired. No I am beyond tired.
Last Friday I had my latest Friday 13th mushroom, if you follow me on other socials then you would have seen it and I do believe I did a mini shroom tour on tiktok last week. Before anyone says “but I thought you were broke, how can you afford a tattoo?” Well the answer is simple. It was already paid for as I was supposed to have had one last November but it was cancelled due to the covid lock down. My body takes a while to recover from being tattooed and I don’t think it is actually recommended that someone with ME or Fibromyalgia get them but as I have never properly researched it I am not 100% sure. I also have no plans on looking further into it because I love getting new art work on my body, and what I love even more is adding to my Friday 13th tattoo collection. I have 13 Friday 13th tattoos at the moment too, 11 of those being mushrooms.
Of course I am also tired because of my health conditions, but that really isn’t anything I am not use to by now, but life’s stress is also weighing heavy and making the exhaustion even worse. All I want to do is sleep and hide from the world. Every part of my life gets harder as we enter Autumn and Winter. The stresses from the year pile up and feel heavier than ever before. I need to move my SAD lamp over to my nesting side of the room, rather than by my desk seems as though it isn’t often I sit there. Mainly as my office area has been turned into a dumping ground for clean washing, letters, and things from when I turned the under-stair cupboard into our pantry.
Now is the time I have to start planning for the winter months, I do not go out as it is but even less so over the winter. I am still waiting for the apples and wild plumbs (turns out what I thought was a sloe is in fact a wild plumb) to ripen but other than that what veg was grow has been harvested. There is plenty of work to do in the garden, still many trees to trim, those branches to be trimmed and prepped to be used as structural posts for the chicken run. Which also needs to be prepared for winter and no doubt more bird flu precautions. A sick and leaf pile to be made behind my pond for the frogs and hedgehog to go in over the winter. As well as any insects that’ll need a nice warm place to sleep.
I am already thinking about Samhain and Yule as everything will have to be hand made this year. Usually I always like to include a handmade item into decoration and gift giving but this year its all has to be hand made, unless I suddenly come into an income. Which honestly is looking quite doubtful. But it should make great content right? You know for the YouTube channel I started and have neglected out of fear of not being able to edit (yes still, I know its annoying for me too) and it has been a year now so I really need to get over this fear. But as always everything is going to come down to health, oh and if I can sort out my house or at least my work room so I can use my sewing machine again too. But I can not do anything physical until my tattoo has healed because I walk into things as well as dropping things on me as it is let a lone combined with the cures of a new tattoo that always seems to be an accident magnet.
For now project handmade yule 2021 shall be kicked off with blanket making, I know I should probably set up my camera and get recording things too, you know bite the bullet so to speak. I know this and yet the fear is too strong at the moment. Now if I have a videographer and editor creating content would be so much easier. Oh and coffee, lots and lots of coffee.